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I knew I would not be coming back

I knew I would not be coming back

My PSW beginning I worked with a lady in private home care. She is the reason why I became a nurse. I cared for her for three years a became a part of the family. I worked with her everyday. She was non-verbal but I was able

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Time helps

Time helps

Death is a gift that allows people to be released from pain and sadness. It most importantly, allows the survivors to experience the life that they were predestined to live. This difficult to understand in the midst of grief with the loss of a loved one, whether

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You said goodbye

You said goodbye

I wasn’t there at first. You waited. I finally got there, You were there for me I stayed. You said goodbye. I remember.

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A young girl taking on adult responsibilities

A young girl taking on adult responsibilities

A young caregiver growing up too fast you were 10 years old when you found out your grandmother had Alzheimer’s, within 6 mths you grandfather tragically passed leaving family to care for your grandmother. You honorarly and thoughtfully stepped into action, you bathed her, dressed her, fed

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I felt completely isolated

I felt completely isolated

When my grandfather passed away suddenly, I had just moved up North with my husband. I hadn’t started working, knew nobody and I was alone when my sister called to tell me. I felt completely isolated, alone and had a very difficult time with my grieving and

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I was the little girl

I was the little girl

I lost my hero 2 years ago. Dad had COPD with 30% lung function. He showed signs and symptoms of a cold on a Wednesday. Cold turned to pneumonia on Saturday, ICU Sunday died the following Thursday. My world stopped, even though my eyes saw people on

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After the loss of her son

After the loss of her son

I was caring for a young adult that had been critically injured. Facility was not PFCC, however, I let pt’s mother/father at bedside due to pt’s precarious situation. Pt passed away. One year later, after the loss of her son, pt’s mother came back to facility to

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You wish you had more time with them

You wish you had more time with them

Appreciation of life and how we interact with others is so often undervalued. Upon hearing the sudden death of 3 family members from an accident, many thoughts suddenly appear and you wish you had more time with them. Upon hearing the news, I was away with friends

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Loss of hope, of life

Loss of hope, of life

I am 44 years old and I have never lost someone who was integral to my life. My close touches with death and dying include a beloved family pet, a 101 year old grandmother and my husbands grandmother.  But most of all I was deeply deeply affected

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I look back to that night

I look back to that night

The first patient who passed in my presence….. 5 y.o boy…I thought I will never go back to nursing, instead I am in palliative care. Whenever I am in doubt of what I am doing in life I look back to that night, to that little boy

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