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I think about unspoken words

I think about unspoken words

Dad, I miss you… There are so many conversations we should have had. I think about the unspoken words and hope that in some way we shared them. Know that I carry a bit of you with me every day. Love you Dad.

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You’ve left me with a wealth of knowledge

You’ve left me with a wealth of knowledge

Thank you mom for making me the woman I am today. Your passing was sudden but you’ve left me with a wealth of knowledge of life. I promise to carry on your sense of family and class. You were one of a kind and handled a lot.

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We talk about them as if they were alive

We talk about them as if they were alive

In Jewish Culture when a person passes away we say they live in their descendants. My Bubbie & Zadie past away very close together when I was 9. I’m 22 now. We often forget to light their yahrzeit candles. It has been so long since I visited

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A small fragment of my life

A small fragment of my life

Absence – of emotion. Distance had led to my grandparents being only a small fragment of my life. It seemed unjust.

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You forget how deeply a person impacts your life

You forget how deeply a person impacts your life

My grandmother. It’s been just over a year since she passed away. I miss her deeply. She had a fire to her; strength and courage that I hope I can one day embody. You forget how deeply a single person can impact and reverberate through your life,

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I felt unable to move, to think

I felt unable to move, to think

Grade 4. Afternoon. Lights off. Watching a VHS. Something went off in my brain. “I’m going to die. One day I will not exist.” I was overcome with anxiety. I felt unable to move, think. I looked around at everyone else in the classroom. “Am I the

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We took our youth and time for granted

We took our youth and time for granted

How quick it all happened and the immediate regret of us not hanging out more, because we took our youth and time for granted. “It was great coming by again, see you in a few days. We’ll try to make something work.” Last words. Sound familiar? He

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I regret not knowing you better

I regret not knowing you better

Not asking enough questions about your life. Not knowing you better. Not calling often enough. If I did I would have more (deeper) memories, it hurts me that I didn’t.

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The very next day everything went horribly wrong

The very next day everything went horribly wrong

Nicolas… how healthy you seemed when you were born… I remember feeding you and holding you. I remember how your big brother was so proud. I remember how the very next day everything went horribly wrong. I remember the doctors telling us they “did everything they could,”

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She asked if it was ok to accept death

She asked if it was ok to accept death

When my grandmother on her dying journey asked if it was ok for her to accept death and stop fighting. A strong woman who had supported her family for her whole life accepting defeat. You never needed to ask you thought us to support each other the

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