Creating space to pause, reflect and share experiences with dying and death

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He had all of his final wishes

He had all of his final wishes

My grandpa was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer initially in the spring of 2014. He had surgery and was cancer free for over 2 years. He was re-diagnosed in July 2016, the oncologist gave him 1 year to live. He became depressed and was focusing on how much

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We are all survivors

We are all survivors

To my older brother who died from suicide when he was 18 To my mom who died from cancer before turning 50 To my Oma with dementia To my youngest brother who has lost a mom & brother before he was even 13… You live on in

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Bless us

Bless us

Pause. Reflect. Share. We who work in palliative care are going through one of the biggest & most challenging changes that I am likely to experience in my career… and that is MAiD. I am not an “object” or  – I believe ultimately, in autonomy & am

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You were larger than life

You were larger than life

I love you Uncle Eamonn, I’ll always regret not being home in your final weeks. You were larger than life and you will be forever remembered.

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It was so hard to be present

It was so hard to be present

My niece: She lived so bravely until she died. She suffered so her children could have Mom a few months longer. She was angry. It was so hard to be present to all this. I think I will always feel that I did not do my part

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I hope I made you feel safe

I hope I made you feel safe

I feel like I knew you even though you never spoke a word to me. I could see how much everybody loved you by the way everyone was there with you. And I hope I made you feel loved too. I hope I made you feel safe.

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You are in our thoughts everyday

You are in our thoughts everyday

Linda, We miss you so much. The early morning phone call telling us you died was shocking and unexpected. This is not the way life was supposed to go. You are in our thoughts every day, and I am so grateful to have had you as a

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An honour to walk alongside you

An honour to walk alongside you

Delorey, … so afraid, anxious, fearful, I only saw it a few times though in your core your body vibrated with worry … an honour to walk alongside you and your boys with the desire to ease the suffering…let’s face it there was suffering. … I wear

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Regret… it found me anyways

Regret… it found me anyways

I was not prepared for my mom’s diagnosis. I was not prepared for her to die. The 5 1/2 months of her illness felt unreal and its only now…4 1/2 years later… that I can see how I did not and could not internalize that she was

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He becomes anxious

He becomes anxious

My husband recently told me that as a child he would lay awake hours & hours worrying about how he would die and what would happen after he died. He still can’t think about it again & he becomes anxious. I have never thought of it in

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