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You forget how deeply a person impacts your life

You forget how deeply a person impacts your life

My grandmother. It’s been just over a year since she passed away. I miss her deeply. She had a fire to her; strength and courage that I hope I can one day embody. You forget how deeply a single person can impact and reverberate through your life,

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I felt unable to move, to think

I felt unable to move, to think

Grade 4. Afternoon. Lights off. Watching a VHS. Something went off in my brain. “I’m going to die. One day I will not exist.” I was overcome with anxiety. I felt unable to move, think. I looked around at everyone else in the classroom. “Am I the

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We took our youth and time for granted

We took our youth and time for granted

How quick it all happened and the immediate regret of us not hanging out more, because we took our youth and time for granted. “It was great coming by again, see you in a few days. We’ll try to make something work.” Last words. Sound familiar? He

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I regret not knowing you better

I regret not knowing you better

Not asking enough questions about your life. Not knowing you better. Not calling often enough. If I did I would have more (deeper) memories, it hurts me that I didn’t.

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The very next day everything went horribly wrong

The very next day everything went horribly wrong

Nicolas… how healthy you seemed when you were born… I remember feeding you and holding you. I remember how your big brother was so proud. I remember how the very next day everything went horribly wrong. I remember the doctors telling us they “did everything they could,”

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She asked if it was ok to accept death

She asked if it was ok to accept death

When my grandmother on her dying journey asked if it was ok for her to accept death and stop fighting. A strong woman who had supported her family for her whole life accepting defeat. You never needed to ask you thought us to support each other the

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You’re mens, mens, mens

You’re mens, mens, mens

The last time I visited my Nana in her assisted living home, where she had been for several years, slowly succumbing to Alzheimer’s. My brother, trying to reach her through the fog asked her if she recognized us. She stared long and hard at us, clutching our

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You slowly released your tenacious grip on life

You slowly released your tenacious grip on life

I arrived very early that morning, for my ‘shift’. Only two of us, your ‘chosen family’ tended and safe-guarded your palliative care. I knew it was your last day — I smelled flowers and there were none there. You were alone. You were anxious and frightened. You were

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I got married in October when he started getting sick

I got married in October when he started getting sick

My father pass away last August. He died of kidney cancer at the age of 75 years. I remember how hard was for us, my brothers and sisters ‘cause despite we are adults now we all were getting started with our new family. My brother was having

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Remember life is short

Remember life is short

Caring for my family was the hardest “job” I had at their end of life, but I am forever grateful for the privilege of being there and the opportunity to share life moments, memories, joyful, and sorrow. It wasn’t easy, but somehow we made it, and accomplished

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