I lost my husband 11 months ago after a short battle with cancer. I miss him so much and I am finding it hard to carry on. My children and grandchildren try there best to help me. But it is the times when I am alone. I hate going home to a empty house, miss the cuddles at night and miss him saying I love you. I love with the guilt of turning off all support. It is a struggle to get up and go to work.