Creating space to pause, reflect and share experiences with dying and death

Reflecting

Reflecting

Today I want to celebrate her life

Today I want to celebrate her life

Today I am reflecting on the life of my mother. I lost her unexpectedly last year at 69 years of age. Often times I find myself drifting into the traumatic experience that was her death but today I want to celebrate her life. I have a little

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Love you always

Love you always

Mom, I miss you and <3 you always. You, without knowing, steered me into this path. Your final months live with me as I care for patients and families. Love you & miss you ALWAYS XXX

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Being open to the Divine Source

Being open to the Divine Source

Two men who inspire me among many others in my hospice work – thank you to Henri and Geo. You both continue to guide me form the other side! Little did I know when Henri’s writings inspired me to study palliative care that I would help to

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This makes me special

This makes me special

That I need to remember I am bigger than I want to accept. My emotions and ability to love and empathize is done in a big large way. This makes me special to others, and when not monitored my soul depletes. My tears during reflection are my

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The legacy lives on

The legacy lives on

…thinking of my parents so recently gone, having lived their lives in love. The legacy lives on – in me… a history of tragic loss, healing in palliative care… amazing lives live on in your children, grand-children & beyond. Thank you

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My rock in life

My rock in life

Is of having an amazing mother who made me the person I am today. Your courage to raise 11 kids on your own at a time when it wasn’t the norm. Ensuring we all got an education and were prepared for the world. Thank you for being

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I have purpose

I have purpose

I am so tired. And I realize that I am living well, but not. I have purpose, meaning in my work – but I don’t look after myself in a purpose-full way. I have compassion for those whom it is my privilege to help – but I

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Fear of loss

Fear of loss

Etched clearly in my heart & mind forever… Walking & supporting my mom through a 4 yr journey with terminal ovarian CA diagnosis. The hope, the fight, the successful & failed treatment Emotional struggles & fear of unknown Fear of loss, What I learned: Be honest, live

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You were so much more to me

You were so much more to me

They call you a citizen of the world, given up at birth to be raised by staff and strangers. Transients through your life. You suffered gross indignities in a flawed institution system where you were less than others. You were so much more to me. I wish

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It sits with me

It sits with me

That in their final hours with their father, this family, this son, was not able to rise above the strange family dysfunction to be there for his Dad, and primarily for himself. It sits with me. I tried to facilitate it for him so he wouldn’t carry

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